Confidence

And I’m not gonna (or try really hard not to) post negative stupid things on tumblr anymore !

So after thinking all day and focusing on my immediate reactions, I realized how ridiculous I’ve been. I have SUCH a great life, and I am still such a negative person.  Occasionally I’ll be happy and in such good moods and think I’m joyful, but I’m not, I’m just happy for a little. I’m so negative and i complain about the stupidest things.  So today is when things change. If anyone who I actually hang out with, or am friends with, is reading this and you see me being negative and complaining about ridiculous things, tell me.  I NEED to start being positive. I mean, I’m human, and I’m a girl, of course I’m going to need to vent sometimes, but after I get it out, don’t let me keep talking about it. There is no way to be a happy person if all I do is complain and gripe about everything. It’s summertime, the most perfect, stress-free time to live it up, and love everyone, and love Jesus, and be the happy, smiley, positive friend, daughter, girlfriend, and girl that I know I am.

Gosh. I have the single most charming, loving, handsome, thoughtful, caring, sweet, intelligent, amazing, giving, wonderful boyfriend who just so happens to be my best friend as well. After dating him for over two years, I started taking him for granted, and not realizing how great I have it! I complained and argued and got upset over the stupidest things that I’m so embarrassed about. But after holding my tongue a few times and thinking about what I’m getting angry about, and not just speaking (or texting) without thinking about it, I realized how utterly ridiculous I am!  I’m one of those stupid girlfriend I never wanted to be! I’m not in control of him….I need to start trusting him, and let go of things that happened before. He’s such a trustworthy guy and he’s definitely proven it and I’ve just been scared to accept it. But he’s honestly the greatest human being I’ve ever met, and I’m so madly in love with him. Even if he goes to school two hours away, and even if when he is home, we don’t get to see each other as often as we like, he’s still mine. We’re still best friends, and he’s still the love of my life! He is everything I want and more. He loves Jesus so much and he shows His light to everyone. He’s the biggest sweetheart I’ve ever met, and I can’t wait to spend forever with him.  Nothing can stop us from spending forever with each other! He’s more than I could ever ask for and I’m SO thankful. 2/10/10 f&e&e !!

So, here’s to getting better. For me, and for my family and friends, and Jesus, and my lovely boyfriend. Here’s to livin it up and stayin positive no matter what !!:)